Solace / 8:26:00 PM

Uh huh, an entry after more than a year.

As I grew older, I realize this page would be a place where I seek solace, not in hope that anyone would read it. I hope no one will, that they have long forgotten the existence of this little site.

Again, it has come to a point I just have to pen down my thoughts; let it be a secret between you and me.

So long, my longest confident.

You have been more than a friend - a close friend, or even the best friend I have had.
Time to time, I do not, did not know how, when, where to start a conversation to have my thoughts delivered to this messy earth. It's all cramped in my head and it's all messed up in there.
I hate knowing what you have done for me, the sacrifices, everything. I had to stop you, but I hate knowing things would change from then. It will, believe me.
I not blind; I sense, I feel, and I see what has been going on.
And I'm definitely clear what has been going on.

Tell me what to do.
I need the distance, but I need this friend.

.............
There, this little blog of mine.
I'm sorry you have been filled with too much agony of mine.
But don't worry, you are secret friend.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

Solace / 8:26:00 PM

Uh huh, an entry after more than a year.

As I grew older, I realize this page would be a place where I seek solace, not in hope that anyone would read it. I hope no one will, that they have long forgotten the existence of this little site.

Again, it has come to a point I just have to pen down my thoughts; let it be a secret between you and me.

So long, my longest confident.

You have been more than a friend - a close friend, or even the best friend I have had.
Time to time, I do not, did not know how, when, where to start a conversation to have my thoughts delivered to this messy earth. It's all cramped in my head and it's all messed up in there.
I hate knowing what you have done for me, the sacrifices, everything. I had to stop you, but I hate knowing things would change from then. It will, believe me.
I not blind; I sense, I feel, and I see what has been going on.
And I'm definitely clear what has been going on.

Tell me what to do.
I need the distance, but I need this friend.

.............
There, this little blog of mine.
I'm sorry you have been filled with too much agony of mine.
But don't worry, you are secret friend.